I have to keep reminding myself that Harold Fry is a fictional character in a book. He's not real. I feel my own endeavour is extremely modest by comparison, and that my emphasis on preparation may be disproportionate to the challenge. Maybe even that I am not playing a fair game, stacking the odds in my favour.
After all Harold is a man who is many many years my senior and his walk is much much farther than mine. He is spectacularly ill-prepared for a long walk, or even a short one to be honest. He doesn't exercise and didn't even plan for his walk until after he'd started. He's also staggeringly ill-equipped. His main items of kit appear to be a pair of leisure shoes, a shirt, a tie and a debit card. Then part way through his journey he moves to strip this down further by returning the latter to his wife, thereafter living off the land, sleeping rough, and relying on the kindness of strangers.
But he's not real. Unlike that other long distance walking hero of mine, Sir Ranulph Fiennes, who also happens to be an old age pensioner. On the same day I depart St Bees, Sir Ranulph will be starting his own improbable winter journey across Antarctica. I still feel inferior but at least in this case it is to the greatest living British explorer. I am also confident that his planning and physical preparation will have been thorough. So I am in good company. And he is real.
[photo: Timanfaya, Lanzarote 2013]
We have just returned from a short family break in Lanzarote. We try to spend a few days in the sun at about this time most years. It works well in recharging flagging spirits towards the end of the long winter and seems to serve as a launch-pad into spring. This year our eldest grandson McKenzie wanted to see the volcano and the camels in Lanzarote, so our choice of destination was easy. We did indeed see the volcano and the camels, and otherwise had a thoroughly chilled time lazing around the pool.
I'd always pencilled this in as an "easy week" in my Coast to Coast preparations. A chance to rest and spend some proper time with my family. I didn't pack my walking boots, although my running gear did make it in. My idea was to go out for the odd run (in my case, jog) to explore the area and so aid sightseeing. Because I would be providing a service to the others this wouldn't count as Coast to Coast training.
As it happens I didn't run, or jog, or even walk very much. It was a week of almost complete inactivity. The trouble started late last Friday. It was a good day, and I was feeling good, to the point where I did my daily walk before dawn in order to free up time in the evening. Friday evening is always a good time at home. Reece and McKenzie usually come for dinner, and we reflect on the week and share plans for the weekend ahead. This Friday was better still as we discussed final plans for our flight out on Sunday.
Our conversation included the timing of my long Saturday walk, and how this would work around our other plans for the day. I went to bed fully anticipating an early start to my walk, although something didn't quite feel right. Sure enough I woke up on Saturday feeling somewhat unwell. Wiped out really, rather than any specific symptoms. I could have walked but took the view that the benefit of one last walk before holiday wasn't worth the risk of making my condition worse.
Of course my condition worsened anyway, steadily through Saturday and then sharply overnight. I spent much of the night awake shivering and sweating and aching, and worrying that I wouldn't make the flight. I had man-flu. This was serious.
I did make the flight and my condition improved through the week, although never to the point where I'd regained my energy or my impatience to exercise. I did get to finish The Unlikely Pilgrimage of Harold Fry though. Hence my sense of inferiority.
[photo: Warm weather training, Lanzarote 2013]
So where does this leave me? I have a further couple of weeks of daily walking with weekend long-walks planned, according to the pattern I successfully followed prior to the Lanzarote trip. I don't plan to push any harder than I have already, there isn't time now to build up. This means I won't quite have achieved what I wanted to when I set out on my training programme at Christmas. I won't be as well prepared physically as I wanted to be, although it has certainly not been a disaster. I found out some really useful things about my equipment, my body and my mind that I will certainly put to use in a few weeks. I was also pleased with the way I easily adapted too every-day exercise. That was originally my biggest concern and whilst I'd still say it is a risk I feel better about it now.
Anyway, compared to Harold my training has been thorough and comprehensive, although surely Sir Ranulph would regard me as some sort of wimp. One thing the two of them would agree on though is the importance of a sense of purpose and an absolute determination to succeed. That makes three of us.
As my training tapers most of my focus for the next few weeks will the finer details of my plan. Instructions for joining and leaving for visiting walkers, sharing details with my team, final contacts with accommodation providers, final deposit payments, shopping for supplies, and packing. We're into the final phase of preparation. It's exiting, and despite not yet being fully fit my belief is as strong as it has ever been.
[photo: shark attack, Lanzarote 2013]
I don't often read fiction and wouldn't pretend to be an informed reviewer. For what it's worth I think The Unlikely Pilgrimage of Harold Fry is a cracking book, and I'd thoroughly recommend it. Indeed Carol is currently reading it and is eagerly devouring the pages, and she is a proper reader of novels. That's probably a better recommendation than mine.
Unsurprisingly it is a book about a long walk, although the physical journey from one end of the country to the other is only really the backdrop for the story. Without really intending to Harold sets out on a mission to save a life, or at least to try and extend it. He spends three months on the road during which he meets a variety of people, and given that he is a shy man this in itself is significant. All of the characters are interesting in some way, and most of them are kind to him. Emerging from himself Harold learns to embrace their differences. Closer to home the key relationships in Harold's life are also explored: With his son, with his friend Queenie, and most satisfyingly with his wife.
Most of all it is a book that describes a man on a journey, rediscovering and reconstructing himself by stripping back the layers built up over many years. By the end of his journey he has pared it all down to what is really important, and the book ends on an optimistic note.
For me it is a book full of tragedy, humour, warmth and many splendid characters and observations. I also found it inspirational. I expected it to remind me of the value of the mission in overcoming a great challenge. It did, as Harold pushed himself to and beyond the edge over and over again. There were phases of strength and weakness, of absolute certainty of success and of total dejection and certainty if failure. At each low point though he somehow found the strength to take one more step, driven by the mission.
More surprisingly it has made me think about myself and my attitudes. After reading the book I will try to be better. I will try to be more patient. I tell others that it is the journey that is important, not the goal. Maybe I should live that a little more. I will try to remember that everyone has a story and I will try to be more understanding of, and more interested in others.
[photo: me & Harold Fry, Lanzarote 2013]